This post is going to be a little confusing, but just work with me. Drama. Do you know about, drama? Not the great TV show we love to watch, not the class we took in high school that made us feel like we could make it on Broadway, not even the first grade girl who screams when she sees a lizard, drama. I'm talking about the people in our lives who suck the very life from us because everything is a problem, everything is turned into a problem, and everything is about THEM. You know exactly what I mean, I can feel your brain filing through the names of more than one person who fits the bill. My drama, this person who confuses loyalty with "let me step all over you", this person who "one ups" you on everything, like when you talk about breaking your arm and then jumps in and says they broke both arms at the same time, that drama. This person STOLE MY TEACHING IDENTITY!!!!!!!! Ok, I said it, out loud for everyone to read, maybe even the drama.
Imagine the look on my face when I was given a copy of something I could use and was told that drama gave it to them. Ummm, this something, this one little very big thing, happened to be my LESSON PLANS!!!! After further research, I find out that my PRETTY MUCH EVERYTHING I HAVE EVER SHARED or MADE MYSELF was not made by me. I don't even write on my very own blog, I don't have a Master's degree and I am not working on a Master's Certificate in math. Guess what???? Drama has all of this.
I am befuddled or am I? Maybe I really am drama? Hold on. Nope, it's me, I looked in the mirror. I have so many ideas for my blog this year, but now I am concerned that they aren't my ideas at all. One more thing, Drama is my FRIEND! Drama has played its (no gender for fear of creating more drama) last role. I have the upper hand here, because I was in drama and I am about to play the role of a lifetime. My identity will not only be returned to me, in tact and better than ever, but drama will do it with a smile and not even know that I took it back. This will be the last time drama creates drama about me when I am not in the room. Bees, honey, vinegar, you know the saying. It goes in line with the great friends, enemies, and closeness deal. Drama and I will be so close you won't be able to tell where one ends and the other one begins.
I digress... I won't do anything to drama, but that last paragraph sounded great. I even believed I was a revengeful person, but alas, I am not. Hence, the reason drama can walk all over me and I wipe off the footprints and wait for the next step. It hurts. A lot. I have to think of a way to get over this and move on. It will be hard. Very hard. I can do this.
I don't want to stop sharing with my team, I don't want to stop being loyal, I don't want to stop being collaborative with others. I don't want to stop being ME.
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